It has been a long while since I have written in this blog. I have been writing - every day, but I have been writing on the iPad that I received for Christmas last year and using a wonderful app called My Writing Spot. I promised to write every day, no matter what. So that is what I have done for the past year.
A year ago, I attended a writer's workshop with Kathleen MacGowan, author of The Expected One and several other beautiful, amazing books. I have connected with Kathleen over Facebook and appreciate her work and her presence. The nugget that I received from The Writer's Grail workshop was that to be a writer, one has to write. Period. Kathleen and Philip's suggestion was to write, even for 5 minutes, every day. EVERY day. So I made that commitment, and for the past year (the workshop was a year ago this past weekend and when I received the book, The Source of Miracles, also by Kathleen and mentioned in my blog from last December) I have written. Every day I write. It is just what I do. No matter what. It is my sacred daily practice.
I am a writer. I write...therefore, I am a writer.
I am also in the midst of a very profound journey with my business and partnership with Life Force, and WOW- Wo/men Owning Wealth. I have stepped into leadership, residual income, and wealth in a way that I have not done before. It feels like a journey very similar to that of the Camino...they actually reflect one another beautifully.
I saw that my last blog was written in February and I shared about my decision to become a conscious network marketer. It has actually expanded greatly from that - I actually practice Sacred Commerce in partnership with an amazing community of women and men, WOW, and Life Force. I experience the structure of this business of network marketing more as a collaborative business model that is an infinite series of connected and interrelated concentric circles. Core to these concentric circles is a profound spiritual and evolutionary path that we each step on to when we step into this business. To grow and expand in this business is to be on a sacred path that ultimately brings us home to ourselves - to the highest, biggest, brightest, best version of who we each truly are.
I am totally committed to this path of Sacred Commerce, and right now, it demands most of my attention and time. I am committed to creating financial freedom for myself and my family while supporting others to have the same opportunity for health and wealth as I do, and it is my focus and highest priority commitment right now. Why do I even need to write this right now?
Because I had made a commitment to write my book on the first leg of my journey with the Celtic Camino this winter, and as I began to really settle into that task, I realized that my focus is on building a business, not writing a book. I can write every day, but can I write an indepth book and build a rapidly transforming business at the same time? Do I really want to?
My commitment is to write. I am a writer. But is my commitment right now to write a book?
Out of this question, I realized that I wanted to return to this blog. I like writing here. I feel as though I am writing to someone. When I write to "write a book", I write differently. I feel like I am not so much in a relationship, and so I become more concerned about the wording, how I say it, does it sound right? Here, I write, and know that if I need to fill in some details with research, etc., I can and I will and I will come back to it. When I write a book, I feel like I have to have it all right there the first time. Here, it feels intimate and more like a sharing and connecting from the heart.
So, today I return to this blog and share my ongoing Camino journey, and how my life and work at home reflect each other. It comes down to this for me, and in Sue Kenney's words: When the Camino ends, the journey begins.''
My life, all of our lives, are a sacred and profound journey. This is my invitation to you - to live your life as a sacred journey, woven together by your sacred dreams, sacred partnerships, sacred sexuality, sacred commerce, and sacred purpose.
Buen Camino!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
The Camino Continues to Guide and Provide
Back on 9/9, September 9th, before I left for the Camino, I asked "I wonder what the Camino will provide today." I was working with my mantra, "The Camino guides and provides (for me) every step of the way." I knew in my heart the truth of this statement, even as I questioned and doubted whether or not it was "okay" for me to affirm this. Was I somehow using the Camino, relying on it in an inappropriate way? Was I being selfish? Self-centered?
Even with these doubts and self-concerns, I knew that this mantra was a profound reflection of my relationship with the Camino. After being on the Camino for the month of October, I actually love the Camino more deeply than ever, and I also know and accept this truth, the Camino does guide and provide every step of the way.
After I wrote that blog, I let the question go and got on with my day. A few hours later, a dear friend and former coaching client, called me to see if I was interested in finding out more about something she was doing. Hmmm....my first question was "Is it network marketing?" I could feel my resistance rush to the surface. Yes, of course, it was. Damn. I love Kate, I love what she's up to in life, and I knew that I wanted to explore being a part of it. But, I did not want to do network marketing. I had vowed ten years earlier to never do network marketing again.
And then I remembered my question that morning. "I wonder what the Camino will provide today."
In that moment, I knew that I had to be open. What if the Camino knew something that I didn't know? What if this was my opportunity to receive something that was actually what I had been looking for all along but didn't know it? What if I didn't know it all?
I could feel both dread and excitement when I went to meet with Kate a few days later.
As much as I felt concern and reluctance, I also felt an opening and a receiving. I had decided to trust and allow the Camino to provide for me. I couldn't dictate what form the support would come in. One never knows. What I did know then, and know even more deeply now after another month on the Camino, is that the Camino always provides what you need, not what you want.
Something felt right from the very beginning about this opportunity, yet to hedge my diving in, I knew I needed to experience the products. Fortunately, the flagship product of Life Force International, the company with whom Kate was partnering, also comes in a little packets, so I took 45 or so little packets of Body Balance with me to drink while I was walking the Camino. They weighed next to nothing (very important to a pilgrim!) and they were so easy. Every afternoon, when I had been walking for 4 or 5 hours, I poured a packet of Body Balance into my water bottle and as I drank it, I would ask the Camino, "Is this business opportunity with Kate and Life Force in my highest good? Am I to do this business? And if so, at what level?"
Every day this was my afternoon ritual and request, and every day I felt a quiet, warm yes. I really liked the product and how it made me feel. Everyday I felt stronger and more nourished, and while I couldn't distinguish that feeling from what I was receiving directly from walking on the Camino, I knew that something in my body was being deeply nourished. I never saw or felt loud, bright neon billboards proclaiming that "YES, DO THE BUSINESS!" and truthfully, thank goodness. I am sure that this kind of response from the Camino would have raised every resistant hair on my body! Instead, it was a gentle and warm feeling that stayed with me and grew with each day that I walked.
When I came home from the Camino, one of the first calls I made was to Kate. Even in the midst of re-entry, I knew that I wanted to do this. I saw that in building a business that provides residual income, I could fulfill my dreams to walk the Camino every year , I could lead groups of women to walk the Camino and not have it be about the money and be the make or break about whether or not I got to go, I could travel, I could pay off debt, I could contribute to my childrens' college educations, and I could live in England part time. I could make my dreams real, and not have to depend on anyone else to make them happen. I could become 100% responsible for living and manifesting my dreams to the fullest, and in doing so, I could provide others with the same opportunity for making their dreams real as well.
Also, I loved the products and the company and knew that if I was to do this, this was the company that I wanted to partner with. I had several crucial must have's to ever consider network marketing again.
Even with these doubts and self-concerns, I knew that this mantra was a profound reflection of my relationship with the Camino. After being on the Camino for the month of October, I actually love the Camino more deeply than ever, and I also know and accept this truth, the Camino does guide and provide every step of the way.
After I wrote that blog, I let the question go and got on with my day. A few hours later, a dear friend and former coaching client, called me to see if I was interested in finding out more about something she was doing. Hmmm....my first question was "Is it network marketing?" I could feel my resistance rush to the surface. Yes, of course, it was. Damn. I love Kate, I love what she's up to in life, and I knew that I wanted to explore being a part of it. But, I did not want to do network marketing. I had vowed ten years earlier to never do network marketing again.
And then I remembered my question that morning. "I wonder what the Camino will provide today."
In that moment, I knew that I had to be open. What if the Camino knew something that I didn't know? What if this was my opportunity to receive something that was actually what I had been looking for all along but didn't know it? What if I didn't know it all?
I could feel both dread and excitement when I went to meet with Kate a few days later.
As much as I felt concern and reluctance, I also felt an opening and a receiving. I had decided to trust and allow the Camino to provide for me. I couldn't dictate what form the support would come in. One never knows. What I did know then, and know even more deeply now after another month on the Camino, is that the Camino always provides what you need, not what you want.
Something felt right from the very beginning about this opportunity, yet to hedge my diving in, I knew I needed to experience the products. Fortunately, the flagship product of Life Force International, the company with whom Kate was partnering, also comes in a little packets, so I took 45 or so little packets of Body Balance with me to drink while I was walking the Camino. They weighed next to nothing (very important to a pilgrim!) and they were so easy. Every afternoon, when I had been walking for 4 or 5 hours, I poured a packet of Body Balance into my water bottle and as I drank it, I would ask the Camino, "Is this business opportunity with Kate and Life Force in my highest good? Am I to do this business? And if so, at what level?"
Every day this was my afternoon ritual and request, and every day I felt a quiet, warm yes. I really liked the product and how it made me feel. Everyday I felt stronger and more nourished, and while I couldn't distinguish that feeling from what I was receiving directly from walking on the Camino, I knew that something in my body was being deeply nourished. I never saw or felt loud, bright neon billboards proclaiming that "YES, DO THE BUSINESS!" and truthfully, thank goodness. I am sure that this kind of response from the Camino would have raised every resistant hair on my body! Instead, it was a gentle and warm feeling that stayed with me and grew with each day that I walked.
When I came home from the Camino, one of the first calls I made was to Kate. Even in the midst of re-entry, I knew that I wanted to do this. I saw that in building a business that provides residual income, I could fulfill my dreams to walk the Camino every year , I could lead groups of women to walk the Camino and not have it be about the money and be the make or break about whether or not I got to go, I could travel, I could pay off debt, I could contribute to my childrens' college educations, and I could live in England part time. I could make my dreams real, and not have to depend on anyone else to make them happen. I could become 100% responsible for living and manifesting my dreams to the fullest, and in doing so, I could provide others with the same opportunity for making their dreams real as well.
Also, I loved the products and the company and knew that if I was to do this, this was the company that I wanted to partner with. I had several crucial must have's to ever consider network marketing again.
- I had to love the products, it had to be a simple, straightforward product line that could appeal to anyone.
- I had to respect the founders of the company and their leadership style. No "messiah" worship culture.
- The company needed to be solid financially, founded on a product that provided great results and grew into network marketing, rather than a company that wanted to be a network marketing company that then found a product to sell.
- I wanted to love my upline, and not be put under anyone else.
- I wanted a generous and supportive payout plan where I could start making money right away.
- I did not want any hidden, upfront investment costs. I wanted straightforward and above board.
I got all of this with Life Force and Kate.
Thank you, Camino.
I have now been actively doing the business since the beginning of the new year, and getting my feet wet in December. I achieved the first level of accomplishment in January, and with bonuses, I may receive a check for over $500. I have quite a few friends who are using the product and experiencing great results. I am excited.
I get the vision of what a network marketing business can provide. To not only imagine that I can walk the Camino annually and make the pilgrimage from Santiago to Rosslyn one stage at a time, but to also have the means to financially support my dreams, is a dream come true in and of itself.
I have big dreams. Big dreams require me to be willing to take courageous action and to be open to more than what I know to be true or possible. I get to - have to - be open to what the Camino provides. I know that the Camino wants me to walk it. The Celtic Camino needs me to walk it, and to heal the split and create heaven on earth. This is my contribution, my soul's purpose. And so, I get to receive the support and guidance to fulfill my soul's journey. My purpose happens to be a journey, a sacred pilgrim of initiation that requires that I am in the world and integrating the lessons of initiation in my life. I am a modern mystic, a modern pilgrim, who receives the challenges, lessons, initiations, and support from the Camino that are also reflected and experienced in my life. As on the Camino, so in life. As above, so below. As in Heaven, so upon Earth. I walk the Camino, and then return to my life, my world, and to society. There is no split between the Camino and my life. I live and walk them both, fully engaged.
And so it is that I have become a network marketer with Life Force and my dear sister, Kate. Together, we are co-creating Women Owning Wealth (WOW), a powerful new culture within the network marketing world, where women get to re-claim this powerful feminine way of doing business. Within a circle, we create and manifest out of relationship, a community of women co-creating abundant health and wealth for themselves and the planet.
Thank you, Camino.
Suseya!
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Walking in the cold wind this morning but it felt so good! Using my walking sticks brought me right back to the Camino.
Monday, December 13, 2010
The Lord's Prayer
Today was my first day of living into the spiritual practice of the Lord's Prayer, as offered by Kathleen McGowan in her book, The Source of Miracles. Early this morning, I decided to begin the practice with a walk at a labyrinth about 10 miles from here that is outside and made of rounded stones with sand, and is a replica of the Chartres labyrinth complete with the rose of the 6 petals in the middle of the labyrinth. I spoke the prayer as written in Kathleen's book before I started into the labyrinth, and then once I reached the rose, I moved around the petals saying the lines that correspond to each petal, and focused on the first petal of "Faith" that correspond to "Our Father, in Heaven, May Your Name be Hallowed." Much of the petal of "Faith" focuses on our divine mission and our willingness to commit to fulfilling that sacred mission.
Now I have experienced high levels of resistance to, actually rejection of, anything to do with Christianity, "Our Father" languaging, Jesus Christ as a God, the patriarchy, and the Church. So I do not undertake this practice lightly. Even considering the Lord's Prayer has brought up for me all the reasons I left the Christian church in the first place. It has been thirty-five plus years since I was an acolyte in the Episcopalian Church and involved in the teen youth group. This all said, I trust Kathleen and her heretical approach to Christianity, Jesus Christ, and more importantly, Mary Magdalene. Out of this trust, I decided to be open to the Lord's Prayer and experience it for myself. Yet, as I said the Prayer out loud for the first time, and especially with focusing on the the first two lines which include the words, "Our Father", I seriously questioned and doubted both the prayer and myself as I spoke these words. I was very nervous that I was giving away my power and stepping back into the patriarchy. I felt strange, challenged and even anxious.
However, as I moved through and around the labyrinth, I received very clear ideas on how to lead my local pilgrimages in the new year. While I had already had the idea of focusing the pilgrimages on the 6 local labyrinths, I wasn't sure how I was going to do this, or what the context for these pilgrimages would be. It became crystal clear to me that it will be a weekly pilgrimage over 7 weeks, that focuses on the teachings of the rose of the 6 petals, and complete with the teaching of Love, as in the center of the rose, returning to the first labyrinth that we visit. It also seems appropriate to start and finish with a Chartres labyrinth that has the rose of the 6 petals in the middle.
Moreover, I have had a great day today. I have viscerally felt as though I have aligned with a loving force much greater than myself, and that Love is now working through me. In one day. I worked with Kate all morning as we deepened our collaboration and creation of Women Owning Wealth; I got to have some amazing conversations in the afternoon; and then I went for walk at one of my favorite trails that is most like the woods for me, with its deciduous trees, a creek, and wide open fields. In my conversation with a dear friend and co-creator, Ingrid, I shared that I felt as though I had just conceived and am now newly pregnant with multiple babies - the book I am going to write, leading sacred pilgrimages in both Europe and locally; the Cornwall tour with my father in June, Women Owning Wealth with Kate - at least these are the babies/projects that I am aware of right now! While each baby is its own unique and complete creation, they are each intimately related to each other, and the health, well-being and growth of one both affects and contributes to the health, well-being, and growth of all the others. During these next 9 months, I am going to grow and nurture these projects and give birth to a beautiful book, a successful business, an engaging tour, and both local and international pilgrimages.
Ingrid and I also talked about the balance and necessity of both the masculine and the feminine. It is no longer an either/or, or one or the other, or even one over or on top of the other. It is the sacred marriage of the masculine and the feminine that is necessary for the healing of our planet, our world, our lives, and our hearts.
As I walked, I reflected that I had just declared my multiple pregnancy. As I felt and accepted this, I realized that today I had also spoken the Lord's Prayer with intention for the first time. I had said a prayer that invoked the sacred masculine through the profound words, "Our Father". I had invited the divine masculine, Our Father, to assist and support me to live true to way of Love and to fulfill my sacred mission. In saying the Lord's Prayer, I had both invited the masculine energy of providing that which I asked for, and I had received it. Within 6 hours, I declared that I was pregnant.
This may be some of the magic and the mystery that Kathleen was referring to when she talks about the power of the Lord's Prayer. In her words, she says that this prayer is "now, as it was when Jesus lived, the incorruptible formula for personal and global transformation."
Both the synchronistic recognition of my "pregnancy", and my moving forward with, committing to and "owning" my projects - my babies - is the first miracle I have received in the sacred practice of the Lord's Prayer. Kathleen says in her book that the Lord's Prayer is the "most powerful tool for changing your life - and changing the world - that you will likely ever encounter." That's a hefty claim, and I'm open to the possibility that there may actually be some truth in it.
The journey continues...
Suseya!
Sarah
Now I have experienced high levels of resistance to, actually rejection of, anything to do with Christianity, "Our Father" languaging, Jesus Christ as a God, the patriarchy, and the Church. So I do not undertake this practice lightly. Even considering the Lord's Prayer has brought up for me all the reasons I left the Christian church in the first place. It has been thirty-five plus years since I was an acolyte in the Episcopalian Church and involved in the teen youth group. This all said, I trust Kathleen and her heretical approach to Christianity, Jesus Christ, and more importantly, Mary Magdalene. Out of this trust, I decided to be open to the Lord's Prayer and experience it for myself. Yet, as I said the Prayer out loud for the first time, and especially with focusing on the the first two lines which include the words, "Our Father", I seriously questioned and doubted both the prayer and myself as I spoke these words. I was very nervous that I was giving away my power and stepping back into the patriarchy. I felt strange, challenged and even anxious.
However, as I moved through and around the labyrinth, I received very clear ideas on how to lead my local pilgrimages in the new year. While I had already had the idea of focusing the pilgrimages on the 6 local labyrinths, I wasn't sure how I was going to do this, or what the context for these pilgrimages would be. It became crystal clear to me that it will be a weekly pilgrimage over 7 weeks, that focuses on the teachings of the rose of the 6 petals, and complete with the teaching of Love, as in the center of the rose, returning to the first labyrinth that we visit. It also seems appropriate to start and finish with a Chartres labyrinth that has the rose of the 6 petals in the middle.
Moreover, I have had a great day today. I have viscerally felt as though I have aligned with a loving force much greater than myself, and that Love is now working through me. In one day. I worked with Kate all morning as we deepened our collaboration and creation of Women Owning Wealth; I got to have some amazing conversations in the afternoon; and then I went for walk at one of my favorite trails that is most like the woods for me, with its deciduous trees, a creek, and wide open fields. In my conversation with a dear friend and co-creator, Ingrid, I shared that I felt as though I had just conceived and am now newly pregnant with multiple babies - the book I am going to write, leading sacred pilgrimages in both Europe and locally; the Cornwall tour with my father in June, Women Owning Wealth with Kate - at least these are the babies/projects that I am aware of right now! While each baby is its own unique and complete creation, they are each intimately related to each other, and the health, well-being and growth of one both affects and contributes to the health, well-being, and growth of all the others. During these next 9 months, I am going to grow and nurture these projects and give birth to a beautiful book, a successful business, an engaging tour, and both local and international pilgrimages.
Ingrid and I also talked about the balance and necessity of both the masculine and the feminine. It is no longer an either/or, or one or the other, or even one over or on top of the other. It is the sacred marriage of the masculine and the feminine that is necessary for the healing of our planet, our world, our lives, and our hearts.
As I walked, I reflected that I had just declared my multiple pregnancy. As I felt and accepted this, I realized that today I had also spoken the Lord's Prayer with intention for the first time. I had said a prayer that invoked the sacred masculine through the profound words, "Our Father". I had invited the divine masculine, Our Father, to assist and support me to live true to way of Love and to fulfill my sacred mission. In saying the Lord's Prayer, I had both invited the masculine energy of providing that which I asked for, and I had received it. Within 6 hours, I declared that I was pregnant.
This may be some of the magic and the mystery that Kathleen was referring to when she talks about the power of the Lord's Prayer. In her words, she says that this prayer is "now, as it was when Jesus lived, the incorruptible formula for personal and global transformation."
Both the synchronistic recognition of my "pregnancy", and my moving forward with, committing to and "owning" my projects - my babies - is the first miracle I have received in the sacred practice of the Lord's Prayer. Kathleen says in her book that the Lord's Prayer is the "most powerful tool for changing your life - and changing the world - that you will likely ever encounter." That's a hefty claim, and I'm open to the possibility that there may actually be some truth in it.
The journey continues...
Suseya!
Sarah
Sunday, December 12, 2010
The Writer's Grail - I am a Writer.
Yesterday I attended the Writer's Grail Workshop (this is the first one and they will be offering more in 2011. www.writersgrail.com) in Denver with Kathleen MacGowan and Philip Coppens. I loved it. I loved getting to meet and connect with Kathleen and to own that I AM A WRITER. I am a writer because I write. I now expand this declaration to include that I AM AN AUTHOR.
While I was working on an exercise yesterday at the workshop, I shifted my role as author to the center of my soul's mission. Even as I put this on a piece of paper, something didn't feel completely right to me. I realize that PILGRIM is at the center of my mission. As I own and embody who I am as a pilgrim, very closely connected is my being an author and writer. Perhaps they are inseparable. Hmm...
There are many people, including Kathleen, who have known that they have wanted to be a writer since they were a child. Not true for me. It has been since I have stepped into being a pilgrim that the writer in me is asking to be birthed. Perhaps like divine complements, they co-exist with each other, and do not exist fully by themselves. Until right now, I have questioned whether or not I can still be a writer since I haven't wanted it forever, yet as I write this, I realize that my desire to be a writer could not be seen or felt until I became a pilgrim and connected with the Camino, and the sacred art of pilgrimage. For me, being a writer is as much about what I want to write about as it the craft of writing.
Today I begin a 21 Day Commitment to write for 5 or more minutes every day. This is spiritual act of my living into, or perhaps more truthfully, living out of that I AM A WRITER.
My writing my book about the journey of the Celtic Camino is one of my deepest priorities for 2011, and my intention is to have the first draft of the book completed by May 31, 2011. In June, I return to England and spend my summer traveling, with the intention to walk the next leg of the Camino from Puenta la Reina to Toulouse in September. So to have the book completed before I begin my travels will be a send off to the next leg of my pilgrim journey.
Thy will be done.
Suseya!
Sarah
While I was working on an exercise yesterday at the workshop, I shifted my role as author to the center of my soul's mission. Even as I put this on a piece of paper, something didn't feel completely right to me. I realize that PILGRIM is at the center of my mission. As I own and embody who I am as a pilgrim, very closely connected is my being an author and writer. Perhaps they are inseparable. Hmm...
There are many people, including Kathleen, who have known that they have wanted to be a writer since they were a child. Not true for me. It has been since I have stepped into being a pilgrim that the writer in me is asking to be birthed. Perhaps like divine complements, they co-exist with each other, and do not exist fully by themselves. Until right now, I have questioned whether or not I can still be a writer since I haven't wanted it forever, yet as I write this, I realize that my desire to be a writer could not be seen or felt until I became a pilgrim and connected with the Camino, and the sacred art of pilgrimage. For me, being a writer is as much about what I want to write about as it the craft of writing.
Today I begin a 21 Day Commitment to write for 5 or more minutes every day. This is spiritual act of my living into, or perhaps more truthfully, living out of that I AM A WRITER.
My writing my book about the journey of the Celtic Camino is one of my deepest priorities for 2011, and my intention is to have the first draft of the book completed by May 31, 2011. In June, I return to England and spend my summer traveling, with the intention to walk the next leg of the Camino from Puenta la Reina to Toulouse in September. So to have the book completed before I begin my travels will be a send off to the next leg of my pilgrim journey.
Thy will be done.
Suseya!
Sarah
Thursday, December 9, 2010
The Journey Continues...
I have been home for 5 weeks now - home for as long as I was away on the Camino. Sometimes I feel as though it takes me as long to re-enter as the time I was journeying. This time I have been allowing myself to re-enter more slowly and quietly, with my desire to be present with my family and friends as the central intention. I am in the midst of clearing out my office and creating it with an openness and space to allow in the new unfolding of my life. I moved all the stuff out on Sunday, and here we are on Thursday with most of the stuff still sitting on my family's dining room table. While I can take note that I am up early and sitting in my office to write (which means that a certain level of creation has occurred - I have taken out 2 chairs for clients to sit in, and moved in just one comfy chair for me to sit in while I read, write, talk with clients on the phone, and ponder), I am very aware that I do not want to automatically move all the stuff back in. My focus is shifting - I actually moved out my notebooks from coaching school - I am claiming my coaching and what I do know; my notebooks from Own It Sister! - I am releasing and letting go of the past 2 years of my life and allowing the new venture to come in; my notebooks filled with notes from old clients - I no longer want to coach clients one-on-one. My bookshelf is now in a prominent, accessible place (before it was on the other side of my desk and hard to get to). I am including my books on the Camino; Mary Magdalene and the Divine Feminine; Celtic wisdom and spirituality; money and wealth; and some of my most favorite reference books, by authors such as Carolyn Myss and Barbara Hand Clow. These books clearly reflect the direction I am preparing to head in 2011.
One of my intentions and desires is to write an engaging and magnetic book on my pilgrimage on the Celtic Camino. While there is a lot to sort out and to become clear on, I am receiving quite clear impulses on the content of the book. For now, I have titled the book, A Woman's Pilgrimage on the Celtic Camino: Healing the Split and Walking Home to Wholeness. On Saturday, I am attending a workshop with Kathleen MacGowan and her partner, Phillip Coppens. Kathleen is the author of The Expected One, Book of Love, and The Poet Prince, 3 novels that have resonated with my knowing about the true story of Mary Magdalene, the sacred bloodline, and the sacred Feminine. I am so excited to meet her, as I have been developing a relationship with her over Facebook. It is a joy to be in communication with a bestselling author whose books I love and respect on many levels.
Connected with this intention is my deep desire to return to the Camino and to walk and lead a small group of women on the next leg of the journey from Puenta la Reina and the Eunate Church along the Camino Aragones over Somport Pass along the Via Tolosana to Toulouse.
My third intention is to build a strong and collaborative business that generates a powerful residual income for me and my family. My big dream is to be able to live in Colorado and England and to be free of location for my income, to be able to travel, walk and move as I desire, to create from my deep feminine well of creativity, abundance and prosperity, and to be able to offer and share this with others. I want other people to live their dreams and to get to create from a powerful, and empowering place within themselves that both reflects and infuses the new paradigm of co-creation. No more doing it alone, no more struggle, and no more living small and out of fear and lack. I left that back on the Camino. I am owning what I want, and have committed to living from my deepest and biggest desires and dreams. Want to join me?!
I had to put away my Own It, Sister! notebooks so that I could live into and embody owning it! No more just talking about it - now is my time to live into what owning it really means, what it looks like for me, and to express it fully in my life and into the world. I am committed to the new paradigm of co-creating with the feminine power that has been denied for thousands of years. I have denied it in myself, both personally and globally. Every time I do or say something to look good, or right, to others, I deny myself and my true and inherent beauty, gifts, talent, and purpose, and in turn, I deny it in others. Every time I play small, or from fear, I deny it. Every time I avoid my fears, I deny it. Every time I sidestep, I deny it. I even have to own that I have denied it, and to stop denying that I have denied it.
Now is both my time and opportunity to recognize all that has stopped me and kept me small and name it, see it, hold it, let it go, and from this, choose. Choose fear, or choose love. Simple. Choose, and choose again, and again, and again.
I walked with fear on the Camino - much of these past 5 weeks has been about my deeply recognizing that I chose to walk with fear on the Camino. That has been the Camino's gift to me - the recognition that I chose to walk with fear. I am not fear, but I did have it right there along beside me (or in front or behind, but never out of sight). I walked 500 kilometers with fear, so that I would know, in an experiential and embodied way, what it looks and feels like for me to walk with fear and what the consequences of that choice is for me. So often, I placated, I pleased, I kept quiet, I acquiesced. I doubted myself and I hid behind the fear.
To walk the first leg of the Celtic Camino with fear is an essential catalyst for my walking home to wholeness, for only when we recognize that we have split and are separate, can we feel our longing to be whole and connected.
The journey continues...
Suseya!
Sarah
One of my intentions and desires is to write an engaging and magnetic book on my pilgrimage on the Celtic Camino. While there is a lot to sort out and to become clear on, I am receiving quite clear impulses on the content of the book. For now, I have titled the book, A Woman's Pilgrimage on the Celtic Camino: Healing the Split and Walking Home to Wholeness. On Saturday, I am attending a workshop with Kathleen MacGowan and her partner, Phillip Coppens. Kathleen is the author of The Expected One, Book of Love, and The Poet Prince, 3 novels that have resonated with my knowing about the true story of Mary Magdalene, the sacred bloodline, and the sacred Feminine. I am so excited to meet her, as I have been developing a relationship with her over Facebook. It is a joy to be in communication with a bestselling author whose books I love and respect on many levels.
Connected with this intention is my deep desire to return to the Camino and to walk and lead a small group of women on the next leg of the journey from Puenta la Reina and the Eunate Church along the Camino Aragones over Somport Pass along the Via Tolosana to Toulouse.
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| Eunate Church, where the Camino Aragones joins the Camino Frances |
Another intention is to assist my father to market and lead a tour in Cornwall in June based on the historical fiction novel that he is writing on 18th century Cornwall. I am so excited for him and what he is creating at 78 years old, and I truly want to support him in any way that I can. Plus I get to be in England again, with him, in Cornwall, and assist him to lead a small group on a journey. How great is that!
My third intention is to build a strong and collaborative business that generates a powerful residual income for me and my family. My big dream is to be able to live in Colorado and England and to be free of location for my income, to be able to travel, walk and move as I desire, to create from my deep feminine well of creativity, abundance and prosperity, and to be able to offer and share this with others. I want other people to live their dreams and to get to create from a powerful, and empowering place within themselves that both reflects and infuses the new paradigm of co-creation. No more doing it alone, no more struggle, and no more living small and out of fear and lack. I left that back on the Camino. I am owning what I want, and have committed to living from my deepest and biggest desires and dreams. Want to join me?!
I had to put away my Own It, Sister! notebooks so that I could live into and embody owning it! No more just talking about it - now is my time to live into what owning it really means, what it looks like for me, and to express it fully in my life and into the world. I am committed to the new paradigm of co-creating with the feminine power that has been denied for thousands of years. I have denied it in myself, both personally and globally. Every time I do or say something to look good, or right, to others, I deny myself and my true and inherent beauty, gifts, talent, and purpose, and in turn, I deny it in others. Every time I play small, or from fear, I deny it. Every time I avoid my fears, I deny it. Every time I sidestep, I deny it. I even have to own that I have denied it, and to stop denying that I have denied it.
Now is both my time and opportunity to recognize all that has stopped me and kept me small and name it, see it, hold it, let it go, and from this, choose. Choose fear, or choose love. Simple. Choose, and choose again, and again, and again.
I walked with fear on the Camino - much of these past 5 weeks has been about my deeply recognizing that I chose to walk with fear on the Camino. That has been the Camino's gift to me - the recognition that I chose to walk with fear. I am not fear, but I did have it right there along beside me (or in front or behind, but never out of sight). I walked 500 kilometers with fear, so that I would know, in an experiential and embodied way, what it looks and feels like for me to walk with fear and what the consequences of that choice is for me. So often, I placated, I pleased, I kept quiet, I acquiesced. I doubted myself and I hid behind the fear.
To walk the first leg of the Celtic Camino with fear is an essential catalyst for my walking home to wholeness, for only when we recognize that we have split and are separate, can we feel our longing to be whole and connected.
The journey continues...
Suseya!
Sarah
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Walking my Camino in Colorado. Simply, I love to walk. It is truly a gift for my body and soul.
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